It’s 9:16 pm on Monday night, and although I’ve got some five odd blog posts germinating in my head, this is the first time I have had a chance to sit down and write in a very long time.

I am exhausted. I’ve been sick and I’m still working to climb myself out of the huge hole that leaving town for a week causes. Mind you, my husband was here, so it’s not like the house went totally ignored. But still, there remains much to be done and it’s either mind-numbing (laundry) or stressful (paying bills). Plus, Little A is on a biting tear (How DID I manage to produce three children who bite in frustration?) and so I was the victim of many nips today as I was unable to offer her the attention she wanted and deserved.

My husband and I just sat down to look at our schedule for the next two weeks, and I literally burst into tears. It overwhelms and stresses me out.

In other words, I am in no frame of mind to craft a blog post tonight that will add anything of merit to the exploration of wellness. Anything I wrote would either make no sense or be so sour and bitter that I would lose all my blog followers.

So, I think I will choose to marinate. I’m just going to sit and stew in my ickiness for a spell. Then I am going to go to bed and hope that tomorrow is brighter and better.

It’s not very pro-active. It’s not necessarily self-care. But it’s about the best I can do right now.

4 Responses to “Marinating in a Little Ickiness”

  1. on 15 Apr 2014 at 8:22 amSheri Goff

    Don’t beat yourself up! Take time off for yourself. You are allowed to take breaks from the crazy life you have created for yourself. You seem to get sick too often, though. Is it just things recirculating from kids? These are the years for that in your life, I guess. Looks as if you had a great time with your parents and think of the joy you brought to them. Your brain never shuts down but your body just can’t keep up? Let a few things go perhaps? Those of us who have been there, done that understand your stress. Don’t you sometimes want to bite little A back?!?!?!?! πŸ™‚

  2. on 15 Apr 2014 at 1:27 pmVictoria

    Thank you for this blog Kristine. I needed the validation that other Mom’s have the same kinda days I have sometimes!! So thank you! It is a full moon and sometimes that can change what is going on inside of us and change our balance. Sending you a big-o-hug!

  3. on 15 Apr 2014 at 1:32 pmKristine Rudolph

    A “blood moon” no less, right? πŸ˜‰

    I will take that hug and give one right back. Thanks, Victoria.

  4. on 15 Apr 2014 at 2:56 pmChristine

    Happy much-needed marinating! I know how you feel! I very much dislike being over-scheduled. Hang in there! Elephants are best eaten one bite at a time πŸ˜‰

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